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Wednesday, 7 April 2010

I AM NOT A STALKER...No, really!

I'm sitting here having just caught up with everyones blogs and feeling very over full!  Not good.  I've actually been having a serious case of the nibbles...I've just eaten several handfuls of pistachio nuts whilst I've been reading, and I'm not going into any further detail as my hubby has been threatening to read my blog and as he's the curious sort I'm sure he will. I don't need him shaking his head at my list of picking today thanks very much! - This huge glass of SF squash is so not helping.

I've had a weird Easter. Saturday as you can see from the previous post was great...I was over the moon to get under the psychological barrier of 14 stone and Sunday I didn't weigh. I'd been sensible and bought only a small amount of chocolate for the boys for Easter which never even saw the light of day so it was not flaunted under my nose.

Then I caught up on some blogs Sunday evening and had a lovely surprise to find I finally had my very own follower! - Thanks Roo...and also my very first comment from BandedGirl whose blog I've been following for a while.  It was a really good feeling as I've recently started to feel more confident in myself and am feeling ready to have some readers of my own. 

The thing I've noticed about reading blogs, especially the ones that I've gone back to the beginning and read all the way through is that I really feel that I've gotten to know the person (and like them obviously or I wouldn't have bothered to read their whole blog!) and when I put comments onto peoples blogs who I feel as though I have a real liking for...I feel like a bit of a stalker...because they don't know me from a bar of soap!  The good thing about having my own blog though is that those people can now start to get to know me a bit if they want to.

Anyway getting back to the Easter weekend...Monday was the day from Hhhheeeeelllll. I feel like I've been stuck in the house forever and I was getting quite down...I wasn't even able to resort to my usual cures of eating chocolate, drinking a bottle of wine or any other unhealthy mood lifter and I've just been feeling ssooooo lazy that I couldn't even be bothered to do anything energetic!

My in-laws arrived in the afternoon with my salvation...a large Cadbury's egg...1 for me and 1 for my hubby.  I ate most of mine whilst dinner was cooking and then couldn't manage anything else to eat. Ooops! I didn't even feel guilty...it was medicinal.  Needless to say some of that lovely weight loss has now gone back on. I can live with that for now. I needed that chocolate to treat my mental health issues.

Tuesday I really was thrilled to get back to work...hubby had to take the kids to work with him (he's self employed) and I stayed at work until 5pm (I usually finish at 2.30!) Today I worked from home and as I said the nibbles got me bad...I'm going to take the kids out tomorrow the weather's looking promising at least (it's done nothing but rain and be overcaste for the entire Easter school break up to now).

My plan is not to stress out until life gets back to normal. Next week the kids are back at school, I'm back to my usual working hours, I can get back to walking the kids to school which is at least forty minutes walking a day which will make me feel more energetic, more cheerful and help with the weight loss. Then I can start to really evaluate if this fill has got some mileage in it and whether I can lose some weight with it as I don't think Easter school holidays is a fair test...who can withstand the sheer boredom...never mind the ready availability of the evil 'brown stuff'? it doesn't mean my fill is no good. I have had a few nearly stucks and a couple of really stucks since I had it, so it's doing something. I've got to give it a fair trial I suppose before rushing in for another one.

The thing that makes me tempted to rush things and be impatient is the looming closeness of the summer and my desire to lose a significant amount before the sleeveless top season. I'm putting that out of my head now. This is for the long haul.


  1. I like comments, even if I don't know the commenter ;) It is nice to be able to learn more about the people who write, though! I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to get to know you :)

  2. Hi Sparkler!!
    I am SO glad you wrote a comment to me as I saw you my followers but when I tried to access your blog it was by invitation only - and then I didn't know how to get that invitation lol.

    Anyway, I just had a read through your blog - awesome. You seem to be doing so well. You will love the support you receive from blogland, really you will. We are a bunch like no other :)

    I would really like to give you a shout-out on my The Dash site as its a great way of getting new followers and building up your support network. But only if that's ok with you (I know you're trying to keep your identity quiet) If it doesnt suit you just let me know. It's totally cool either way :) I will still come and read and see how you're doing.

    Anyway, it's lovely to finally 'meet' you lol. Have a lovely day.
    Cara x
    PS Great news about you grabbing the book on lap banding. It's a fairly good read.